Thank you everyone who showed concern about the miscarriage. I appreciate it very much. The surgery went well it took 15 minutes.  Waking up for the anesthesia was not so good. I was supposed to be awake and on my way home in an hour I didn’t even wake up for two hours and that who experience was terrible. I do look back at it now and realize I could probably do it again if I had to, but at the time I was the most scared i have ever been. Most people wake up and they are happy smiling and do fine. Me however woke up or was trying to wake up and I was scared, crying, throwing up (from the medicine), and I kept asking for Jesse (he wasn’t no in the recovery room with me and was not allowed in) and asking for Natalie, asking if I was okay where I was. It’s kind of a scary thing when your body is awake and alert but your eyes won’t open and your speech is messed up.  I could hear people around me and hear country music playing in the background but I couldn’t comprehend what was going on. For a couple minutes I really thought I might have been dead, in all seriousness.  I was also very dizzy and had the worst headache all from the medicine I guess. I didn’t stop being dizzy until Friday and so that’s probably when the anesthesia medicine finally wore off completely. I know my mom and my doctor called Friday morning but I don’t remember what they said.I was pretty out of it.

The nurse told me that every once in a while they get a person who wakes up really scared. But usually not. But it was a very emotionally day and the whole ordeal happened so fast it was hard for me to take in.  I know that God had His way whatever that was and I am dealing with that and I’ve had some encouraging words from those who have gone through a similar situation, one who had a miscarriage then months later had twins so you never know.

thank you all for praying for me and for your words of encouragment